Softly The Sea Swallows
My ex boyfriend and I are friends, really good friends. I’ve known him since I was 11 years old and we dated for two years before I met jay. Its so funny though, some people just can’t keep my name out of their mouths about it. It’s none of your business! We have been best friends since we met and that’s not going to change. Yes we text and we talk and we meet for coffee, and we’re perfectly fine with it! And not only that, jay is fine with it. I just don’t understand why people have to make it their business! Get over it already. We’ve done absolutely nothing wrong except be there for each other. We have a relationship that’s closer to a brother and sister than anything else. I really hate when people judge things so quickly. My friendship with him is my business and no one else’s, so please fuck off about it.
It’s funny when someone so close does something to you that hurts so badly. It’s not really funny, I’ve just amused myself by watching my reaction and my feelings change so quickly. Although, what this person did was not directly at me, what I witnessed and felt has been strong enough for my entire feeling to change, my whole thought of our friendship has made a complete 360. I thought of you as a brother, and I assumed that you would always kind of be around to watch over me and to help me if there ever came a time. Now, your probably the last person I would want help from. Nothing is going to take away the feeling of disappointment and wanting to separate myself from you. I’ve watched you lose yourself one too many times now, and I just consider it to be selfish and now dangerous. Your apologized through a fucking text message, I hardly took it as sincere. I don’t care what you think we’re doing when we’re not with you, because chances are, we’re happier anyway. We don’t talk to people the way you do, we don’t have the same issues, and we just can’t relate.
I think you’ve ruined a lot more than you can see right now, but I really do want nothing more than to treat you the way that you’ve treated my two very close friends. There is nothin special to our friendship anymore, I just don’t want to be in your company. I can’t be blamed either, because I’ve caused none of this. I just find so amusing that you planned the entire trip and were so stoked about it, and in the end your the same reason that people left early and had a miserable time, so thanks.
I don’t think you really have a clue on what you’ve done to my feelings, but I really don’t care at the end of the day either, because with all the actual issues that you do have, I’m probably the last thing on your mind.
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